Three Cats' Haunting Harmony
November 17, 2023 - story concept by me, executed by ChatGPT, basically a true story with a happier ending than irl
Bloggy
I love to delve into my psyche and the depths of human experience, exploring themes of darkness, shame, codependency, spirituality, death, loss, grief. I hope to offer solace, both to myself and to others, through making visible my internal struggles and narrative as well as a feeling of connection to the natural and unseen worlds. Astral Travel with me.
Stories
Ephemeral & Cadence - Chapter One Lmao
Cadence feels her lungs expand, hit a peak, and then recede. As she looks from atop the ridge, the tides seem to follow her now rhythmic inhales and exhales - or is it the other way around? The Angel snaps herself back to the present moment, steadying herself as her eyes focus back to the battle at hand. Others' hands. The sounds of clashing metal, both high pitched and dull, alternating with seemingly no predictable pattern; the grunting and the guttural screams, filled with rage and pain; the thud of metal boots, running this way and that across the slick earth.
Personal Essays
CranioSacral Studies
Inspired to learn CranioSacral Therapy and develop the ability to perform it quantumly (aka not having to be physically in contact, via distance, using words, etc.). 🥰🪽🌿❤️🩹
John E. Upledger
Already this man was cool. As I've been reading this book in particular, his techniques, his belief in them, and his attitude towards his work and those he had supported stood out to me as defying societal norms. I read this line, tho, and immediately was like, "This man is an Aquarius." He was born February 10, 1932. He died October 26, 2012. RIP to a Ledgend. ;)
On Saltburn and Evil People
I am ready to stop pretending I don't have Evil inside me. I said the other week that 'unhinged' is really just another word for free - and I meant it. The more unhinged (by my standards) actions I have been taking, the more I feel closer to freedom. Which is a lofty goal in a world predicated on us Needing to feel like Good People, scared of capital-P Punishment if we don't abide by the rules. But Whose rules, exactly? Yours? Mine? Your Neighbour's? Coworker's? The Bible *praying hands emoji*? Jesus wasn't perfect. His message is Unconditional Love regardless of perfection, because none of us can ever achieve perfection. No matter how much we pray, no matter how many 'good deeds' we do, no matter how much we force ourselves to 'repent' for actions we're not fully sorry we took. [Please see @aaya.samadhi for understanding on how living according to avoiding sin and fearing Hell drives us away from connection and further into Freeze in our nervous systems.]
How I Forced Myself To Let Go Of My Ex After A Year Of Holding On
I broke up with my ex, high, while camping, on our exactly 2.5 year anniversary. I had not previously loved anyone to the depths I loved him, nor had I had a relationship in which I felt fulfilled in so many ways. Personality-wise, we are extremely compatible. Even looking at our birth charts - Capricorn/Aquarius galore, the both of us. I used to describe him as a male version of myself.
Creative Writing
Epitaph Pt. 2
<33 As promised
Epitaph
CW: trauma, abuse, child sexual abuse, domestic violence, grief, addiction, suicidal ideation, religion, finances