Energy Is All Around Us
There is energy in everything, and everything is energy. Music is energy, rocks are energy, your pencil is energy. Energy cannot be destroyed - it always is, shifting from one form to another. Everything that is is connected. This website is an invitation for you to connect with your own energy.
Energy Work
We have the inherent ability to connect with our own energy. Sometimes, the signal gets blocked, and it becomes harder to connect with the energy inside.
Emotions are energy - tingling, hot, cold, tensing, tightness, throbbing, sharp, dull, bright, open, warm, pulsing, and many more are sensations people feel when emotions move through them.
Sometimes, when it is uncomfortable to feel these sensations, people try to block them off. What can end up happening is that they then get stuck in their body. Rather than feeling the emotions and allowing them to be transformed, people trap them and store them, sometimes intending to 'deal with them later.'
A person's storage then becomes so full that it clogs up the natural energetic pathways in their body - the lymphatic system, energetic meridians, elimination systems, etc. It continues on like this until a person has such a lack of space to feel new emotions that come up, until they develop chronic conditions, until they cannot bear any slight discomfort - until they don't even have space for joy and pleasure in their life because these emotions require expansion in their bodies, and they have become so used to contraction.
Many people have had experiences from childhood and/or throughout their life that have left them unaware and/or incapable of processing emotions - allowing themselves to feel their heart being squeezed by a shadow hand, focus on that sensation or the image of the shadow hand, tell this feeling that they are there with it, and let go of control, allowing that emotion to say its piece and, in doing so, become transformed - into a different kind of energy.
Many people weren't taught how to do this. It takes a child up until the age of seven to actually have the ability to self-regulate. A lot of people have gone through life with the actual inability to fully feel their feelings. Many people feel like they are just surviving, rather than truly living, because they have spent countless waking - and sleeping - hours running away from shame, guilt, pain, abandonment, fear. In doing so, joy, fulfillment, pleasure, peace, contentment, excitement, ecstacy have not had the opportunity to catch up and stay for very long, either.
As people trap the emotions in their bodies and develop these chronic conditions - fatigue, pain, digestive issues, compulsions, other physical illnesses, mental illnesses - it becomes increasingly uncomfortable to be present in their body, hence the running.
But where do people run to if they are not in their body? People often run to their brain, but then the brain becomes clogged too - with racing and cycling thoughts, trying to predict the future, trying to change the past, with harsh internal criticism and perfectionism, with self-deprecating thoughts, with thoughts that tell them that they can't or will never be able to accomplish certain things, that tell them that they don't deserve ease, that tell them they deserve their pain. And so people's brains then also become an unsafe place to be.
If people have to run from their brains and their bodies, where do they go? Some people run to the astral realm - daydreaming, getting lost in fantasies of other realities, of realities where they have what they so desperately desire (or believe they desire.) Some people run to other people's bodies or energy - sometimes trying to offload their pain onto the other person in various ways. Some people try to numb the discomfort with substances or distractions like scrolling, TV, skin picking, binge eating, etc.
All of this not leaving people fully present with themselves or the pain. And disappointed by the present reality. And still clogged. Wondering why the cycles and the loops they so desperately want to exit feel impossible to break, not fully understanding that it has all become a feedback loop. An orobouros. A self-fulfilling prophecy, programmed into people's systems from beyond just childhood - passed down generationally through DNA and/or passed on from past lives.
If this sounds familiar, you are not alone. This has been my experience. This has been many people's experience.
One of the reasons I have created this website is to share a different way of being. A way of being that creates space for the joy, the fulfillment, the pleasure, the ecstacy, the awe, the wonder, the love, the peace, and the excitement to be felt and sustained - for longer than a couple of hours, a day, a week. This is the journey I am on.
I truly believe that our baseline state of being can be one of joy, peace, contentment, fulfillment. Not in such a way that we cease to feel pain or fear, but in a way where we can identify and feel them as visitors, rather than a state of being. Joy becomes the state of being. Pleasure becomes the state of being. Connection becomes the state of being. And it is from this state of being in which we create lives that bring true fulfillment along with even more joy, pleasure, connection, and peace.
It's not only about naming the emotions, identifying the sensations, breathing through them, listening to their wisdom. It's about letting go of control and surrendering to how the emotions want to move us, what they want to create through us. Is it watercolour painting a pink sunset, scribbling a black Sharpie on a piece of paper, finding pieces of glass down by the river and taking pictures of them, is it smashing a picture frame and ripping a book to shreds, is it letting lyrics flow directly from your fingertips to a keyboard, is it intuitively dancing?
How do your emotions want to move, and what do they want to create???!!! I'd like to know!!!!!! All of this website is to honor the energy my emotions want to express, and by proxy, support others to do the same, and by proxy proxy, to contribute to healing on Earth.
Years ago, I told God I would make a podcast. God has said over and over since then - "why stop there?" We all have such unique, incredible, and important gifts to share with the world - it is time we stop hiding underneath the belief that we can't achieve what our souls have been calling us to. It is time to shed what the systems have told us we can't do. It is time to step into our Power - the Power of Being. Just by Being your Authentic Self, you heal the world.
Cultivating and nurturing joy, fulfillment, connection, and pleasure is the key to ending the completely unnecessary suffering taking place all over the world. Anger is a key emotion to allow to move us. All of us have different roles to play. This is only part of mine, and I am still learning and growing.
It is not always an easy journey, but it is becoming more easeful. Craniosacral therapy has been transformative for me in establishing Joy, Safety, Pleasure, and Connection (especially with myself) as a baseline state of being. From this perspective, my body and energy have begun reacting to the world around me first and foremost from a place of peace, contentment, love, curiosity, and acceptance rather than a place of fear, scarcity, grief, abandonment, and rejection. This doesn't mean I don't make mistakes or have difficulties or hurt others in trying to figure things out. But it does mean that I feel less scared of making mistakes, which allows me to try new experiences in order to learn and grow from them. It means that I am more in touch with the feelings of shame and anger - they have less control over my daily experience because I allow them to move me instead of freezing and trying to run from them.
From rewiring my nervous system, I have created more of a connection with Energy Work, including Quantum Energy Work, which I will talk more about as I continue to add to this website.
There are videos of me processing/transforming energy that you can watch - just watching them can support you in processing your own emotions if you are open to it. Even if you aren't, anything we consume is energy and has an effect on us. If you set an intention to receive the energy from the videos I create, you can invite that into your field.
I am also offering 1:1 Energy Work that will continue to evolve as I grow more in my practice.